2021-04-17

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2021-04-17 08:55 am
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first principle of "overpopulation" as not a myth

Principle #1: Human population cannot continue to grow exponentially forever, eventually we'd have so many people that there's only room for each person to stand while squished next to other standing people.  At some point human population has to either stabilize or shrink.  This is elementary -- a physical quantity cannot grow forever, it must hit one or more constraints at some point.

Maybe our current 8 billions is not too many (although later I'll argue it is), but we can't continue increasing our numbers forever.  To me, this is axiomatic, not subject to good faith debate.  [The only way to extend human numbers beyond "standing room only" is to ship people into space (or some other dimension), and that's a different topic altogether.  Let's limit the current debate to planet Earth.]

And of all the positions I proselytize in this LJ, here is one I've actually lived true in my own life --> I have not contributed my sperm to the creation of a new human.  I hope I never do.
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2021-04-17 09:20 am

organically acquired cock dysphoria syndrome

I think I slowly learned cock dysphoria because I enjoyed my life better while my cock was caged and I wasn't allowed to cum.

Because I enjoy my life better when my cock is caged and I'm not allowed to cum.
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2021-04-17 09:41 am
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more comment (re: interior decorating)

cash dispensers in the ceiling spitting 20s to a random beat
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2021-04-17 10:06 am
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damn it, so many good books I could read

Which will be the next Book of the Moon? I know I'll finish the poetry book on time, but what next? Is it kosher to re-read a novel I've already completed? I think I need to continue picking books that I haven't completed, that's the point. Wondering about Dead Souls by Gogol,

Although the novel ends in mid-sentence

Also contemplating a history of Afghanistan,
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2021-04-17 10:31 am
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World passes 3 million coronavirus deaths

Would you have worn a mask to prevent the Holocaust?
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2021-04-17 10:52 am
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an older reason for the cock dysphoria

OK, I wasn't entirely truthful about being cock proud before.

I had performance anxiety regarding my cock.  Getting it hard on demand, so that I could fuck people.  Generally, my first time with another guy I wouldn't cum, maybe even didn't get hard.  Finding that --> relaxed but still horny mental space --> in front of another person was difficult.  As K would know, we have to sneak up on it.  If you WANT me to fuck you I'll fail.  You have to LET me fuck you, maybe.

It even happens in my sex dreams, all the times I've woken up before having an orgasm in my dreams.

I can definitely do the top role, I've fucked people plenty of times, but I'm more comfortable as the bottom.  I can bottom any day.  Well, 99% of the days.  But topping is stressful, flip the coin, please don't make me,
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2021-04-17 11:26 am

food vs fasting

fantasizing about solo outdoor dining on 17th street with my 80% badge, but also could fast today because I'm not actively building an immune response,

beer has calories,

remembering when I ate at an indoor restaurant that final March 2020 weekend before everything abruptly closed, and how there were only two of us in the entire place, how DC was suddenly a ghost town,

the outdoor tables on 17th street are pretty busy nowadays; before I shunned them; but not today, I think I'm leaning toward a beer-only fast, didn't really get going with the butt toys last night because of processing work stress, that 6-month eval sitting in my inbox is triggering, DON'T OPEN IT BUG,

so, yeah, fasting, I'll go get a pack of beer later,
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2021-04-17 01:33 pm
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how liberals should roll:

It's OK you disagree with me, it's OK if you're skeptical of this assertion, let's look at the data together and each make up our own minds.
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2021-04-17 01:44 pm
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my first time (17)

I needed MAB to push it, I needed him to have a meltdown about how I wasn't putting out, I needed to know that somebody wanted my body that badly, that he'd cry,

And then we had sex,

vaseline as the lube, he fucked me on his mother's bed,

I needed to know that he needed me