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late October dark mode
Dark mode is hitting hard now -- I'm no longer lit awake by the sun, so I'm sleeping past 7am. But I've also been staying up later than usual, because T isn't here.
I'm firming up my plan to take Thursday and Friday off. I'll make the request today.
The sense of being home alone has definitely sunk in now. It's been a long time since T went away for a week, and the last time he did I had other people over to the house. I'd typically have K over for a night or two when T traveled, so we could enjoy the hot tub together. Sometimes I had other friends over, such as B or Steve. Sometimes I had a fuckbuddy visit, such as David or Missa. So my week off from T would be a mixture of time to self and time with other people.
Although I'm socializing a bit virtually, phone calls and online games, I'm not having anybody over, because of Quarantine. So I've had enough time to self to feel a bit lonely this morning. At least I have the pets to keep me company :-)
Last night I had a dream that I was traveling with a cat, staying in a hotel room, and then all sorts of wacky pre-Quarantine things started happening -- my hotel room was somehow part of a suite in which two different meetings were being held -- in one of the rooms a fitness instructor was gathering her clients for an exercise routine, in another of the rooms people were showing up for some sort of political action, and then the hotel manager and front desk clerk dropped by to tell me how wonderful my room is -- the quality of the floor covering -- WTF all these people in my hotel room. And I'd forgotten to get the kitty litter tub out of the car, so my little cat was upset and started biting me. Strange dream.
After I got into bed, but before I fell asleep, two of my favorite porn stars began a free, live show. They're so hot, and it was 22 days since I had an orgasm, I starting thinking I was about to have a nipple orgasm while watching them, but at the last second I decided to continue following the Cum Deck rule ... I think I'd never felt so precisely close to the edge of an orgasm without going over.
It took a while this time, because of some emotional interference, but I'm back to the perpetually super horny state that a chastity sub should have. I'll try to stick with the discipline of the Cum Deck. If I'm taking Thursday and Friday off, I won't want to draw another card until Friday, I'll want to remain super horny all day Thursday.
I thought I'd cook meals for myself while T was away, so we didn't pause the meal kit service, but I haven't cooked anything yet. I think I will finally cook tonight.
I'm firming up my plan to take Thursday and Friday off. I'll make the request today.
The sense of being home alone has definitely sunk in now. It's been a long time since T went away for a week, and the last time he did I had other people over to the house. I'd typically have K over for a night or two when T traveled, so we could enjoy the hot tub together. Sometimes I had other friends over, such as B or Steve. Sometimes I had a fuckbuddy visit, such as David or Missa. So my week off from T would be a mixture of time to self and time with other people.
Although I'm socializing a bit virtually, phone calls and online games, I'm not having anybody over, because of Quarantine. So I've had enough time to self to feel a bit lonely this morning. At least I have the pets to keep me company :-)
Last night I had a dream that I was traveling with a cat, staying in a hotel room, and then all sorts of wacky pre-Quarantine things started happening -- my hotel room was somehow part of a suite in which two different meetings were being held -- in one of the rooms a fitness instructor was gathering her clients for an exercise routine, in another of the rooms people were showing up for some sort of political action, and then the hotel manager and front desk clerk dropped by to tell me how wonderful my room is -- the quality of the floor covering -- WTF all these people in my hotel room. And I'd forgotten to get the kitty litter tub out of the car, so my little cat was upset and started biting me. Strange dream.
After I got into bed, but before I fell asleep, two of my favorite porn stars began a free, live show. They're so hot, and it was 22 days since I had an orgasm, I starting thinking I was about to have a nipple orgasm while watching them, but at the last second I decided to continue following the Cum Deck rule ... I think I'd never felt so precisely close to the edge of an orgasm without going over.
It took a while this time, because of some emotional interference, but I'm back to the perpetually super horny state that a chastity sub should have. I'll try to stick with the discipline of the Cum Deck. If I'm taking Thursday and Friday off, I won't want to draw another card until Friday, I'll want to remain super horny all day Thursday.
I thought I'd cook meals for myself while T was away, so we didn't pause the meal kit service, but I haven't cooked anything yet. I think I will finally cook tonight.