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Christmaseseseses Eveseseses
I loved the party, but it’s so much work, leaves me like some sort of floating anime balloon, the next day I need to fly solo
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singularity approaches
feeling I’m teaching the LLMs as much as they’re teaching me, this might be the only year in which this is possible, before they don’t need to learn from us users anymore
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who is this "person" who has an "ality"
I feel I can really be myself around my sister, it was a great time,
and every time I visit,
her children,
are completely different people
kids' personalities can change a lot
and if I think back upon all my years, so has mine
and every time I visit,
her children,
are completely different people
kids' personalities can change a lot
and if I think back upon all my years, so has mine
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even though you are
but there are two aspects to irrational feelings -- you have to allow yourself to feel them, and you have to employ rational counterarguments -- the paradox of therapy -- there's nothing wrong with you, but here's another way of thinking about it and then feeling about it, but take your time, I'm here for you with unconditional positive regard, there is nothing wrong with you, even though you are unfixable
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more comment (re: racism under capitalism)
I don't think I put it together in that way, that having a racial identity, even if it is a minority racial identity, is exactly as bad as the Third Reich or White Supremacy — same for ethnic or nationalist identity — for the Left to embrace minority identities is simply the mirror image of the Right embracing the majority identity.
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the lack of contrast effect
Without the daily contrast against President Trump, big-state Democratic Governors are suddenly in big trouble -- Cuomo in New York is facing possible impeachment, Newsom in California is facing possible recall. The contest for worst asshole in the US has switched its focus toward other deserving targets. The outrage has to go after somebody! Please don't make us wait until the next regular election to get rid of these assholes!
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OK, I did it
I sent a cock-choking video to Mark. Goddess, let me know in the morning whether he liked it.
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Bug got his confidence back
This pandemic quarantine stole my confidence in myself.
Sir Ben gave it back to me. Our interactions via chat, over the past few days, he gave it back to me.
I don't mean that the rest of you didn't help. All of you helped. But Sir Ben pushed me over the cliff, gave me that last little push I needed, and then I was falling, without a net. All y'all been pushing and then he pushed also and, aaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Bug reacquired his unconditional positive regard of himself today. While walking Dax in the rain, in the spongy playground, with his wet shoes & socks,
-->unconditional positive regard<--
You have to be your own best friend, your own lover, your own therapist, your own Mom and Dad, you have to be your own Sir,
and you are, we are, we're cool, we've always been cool, we win
Sir Ben gave it back to me. Our interactions via chat, over the past few days, he gave it back to me.
I don't mean that the rest of you didn't help. All of you helped. But Sir Ben pushed me over the cliff, gave me that last little push I needed, and then I was falling, without a net. All y'all been pushing and then he pushed also and, aaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Bug reacquired his unconditional positive regard of himself today. While walking Dax in the rain, in the spongy playground, with his wet shoes & socks,
-->unconditional positive regard<--
You have to be your own best friend, your own lover, your own therapist, your own Mom and Dad, you have to be your own Sir,
and you are, we are, we're cool, we've always been cool, we win