horny wave
7 March 2021 06:21![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
m_d_hThe horniness arrives in waves, 8 weeks in. This morning a strong swell, crashing against the threat of covering a $$$ fine and admitting failure; instead I'm visualizing what it may feel like to hand control of my next orgasm to whichever fella is lying naked next to me, in a few months; damn, this doesn't calm the wave at all, but redirects from the question of whether I should unlock myself and stroke to completion,
goddess, I'm imagining with intense detail the men who could lie next to me, the various heights & weights, skin colors, hair patterns, cock styles, ages, feet, and lips -- I don't think I'll be fussy, but what if he says "no" and then strolls out the door, having satisfied himself upon my insatiable ass, taking with him the offered keys until "next time", as the door closes he says, "By the way, don't text me again for 72 hours, start your timer now, boy." Door closed, I realize I'm no closer than I ever was. Separation always returns.
goddess, I'm imagining with intense detail the men who could lie next to me, the various heights & weights, skin colors, hair patterns, cock styles, ages, feet, and lips -- I don't think I'll be fussy, but what if he says "no" and then strolls out the door, having satisfied himself upon my insatiable ass, taking with him the offered keys until "next time", as the door closes he says, "By the way, don't text me again for 72 hours, start your timer now, boy." Door closed, I realize I'm no closer than I ever was. Separation always returns.