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18 August 2020
What if I started a new journal at a new domain, what would I write about? Would there be a rupture between what I wrote there and what I write here? Would it be an entirely new project? Would it simply be a new chapter?
I'm feeling grumpy, like I need to do something different. But also like I don't have time to do something different.
Somehow for months I've been feeling like I don't have time to do anything different. It's the pandemic, the quarantine, it seems all I can do is hold onto (some of) what I've already got, although with adaptations. Like working out in the basement instead of at the gym. Trying to do my job from home. Spending time with only two humans, both of whom I've known for over a decade. Somehow this smaller universe takes up more of my time than the larger universe did, and I still haven't figured out why, after five months of quarantine.
Hmm. This new journal could be another way to hold onto (some of) what I've already got, although with adaptations. Journaling at Dreamwidth instead of LiveJournal. With fewer readers, at least at first.
I'll try writing here instead of there for a while and see what happens to my writing.
I'm feeling grumpy, like I need to do something different. But also like I don't have time to do something different.
Somehow for months I've been feeling like I don't have time to do anything different. It's the pandemic, the quarantine, it seems all I can do is hold onto (some of) what I've already got, although with adaptations. Like working out in the basement instead of at the gym. Trying to do my job from home. Spending time with only two humans, both of whom I've known for over a decade. Somehow this smaller universe takes up more of my time than the larger universe did, and I still haven't figured out why, after five months of quarantine.
Hmm. This new journal could be another way to hold onto (some of) what I've already got, although with adaptations. Journaling at Dreamwidth instead of LiveJournal. With fewer readers, at least at first.
I'll try writing here instead of there for a while and see what happens to my writing.
"Blue Lives Matter"
18 August 2020 21:06Somebody stuck a sticker to the back of my car that said "Blue Lives Matter".
Strangely, I learned about it from my neighbor, who saw it, and knocked on our door to report it. She said that somebody in the neighborhood has been putting these stickers on cars. She said it was probably teenagers, she hadn't seen them do it herself.
I don't think I would've noticed any stickers on any neighbors' cars. I wonder how long it would've been until I noticed the sticker on my own car.
I haven't put any stickers on this car myself. I used to put stickers on previous cars, but I decided this time my car would not be a propaganda vehicle. It's just a car. I don't drive it much, especially under quarantine. I don't expect to ever buy another car after this one. I expect to live somewhere else by the time I get rid of this car, somewhere that doesn't require me to own a car.
As for the message on the sticker, "Blue Lives Matter" -- well, I don't like the antagonism between the opposing slogans, "Black Lives Matter" or "Blue Lives Matter". Black people are disproportionately killed by police. Police officers die in the line of duty. Both sets of deaths are made worse by the huge supply of guns in the US. I wish police would kill fewer civilians. I wish civilians would kill fewer police. I wish neither civilians nor police felt they had to carry guns. It's a sort of arms race, like the US and Russia both having thousands of nuclear weapons -- except the US and Russia don't shoot their nuclear weapons tens of thousands of times per year at each other like US residents shoot their guns at each other.
I think both Black Lives Matter and Blue Lives Matter. If my saying this bothers you, either because you don't like saying Black Lives Matter, or you don't like saying Blue Lives Matter, then ... well ... feel bothered, that's your right.
Now if I do decide to put a sticker on my car, I wonder whether the neighbors will knock on the door to check on whether I put it there myself.
Strangely, I learned about it from my neighbor, who saw it, and knocked on our door to report it. She said that somebody in the neighborhood has been putting these stickers on cars. She said it was probably teenagers, she hadn't seen them do it herself.
I don't think I would've noticed any stickers on any neighbors' cars. I wonder how long it would've been until I noticed the sticker on my own car.
I haven't put any stickers on this car myself. I used to put stickers on previous cars, but I decided this time my car would not be a propaganda vehicle. It's just a car. I don't drive it much, especially under quarantine. I don't expect to ever buy another car after this one. I expect to live somewhere else by the time I get rid of this car, somewhere that doesn't require me to own a car.
As for the message on the sticker, "Blue Lives Matter" -- well, I don't like the antagonism between the opposing slogans, "Black Lives Matter" or "Blue Lives Matter". Black people are disproportionately killed by police. Police officers die in the line of duty. Both sets of deaths are made worse by the huge supply of guns in the US. I wish police would kill fewer civilians. I wish civilians would kill fewer police. I wish neither civilians nor police felt they had to carry guns. It's a sort of arms race, like the US and Russia both having thousands of nuclear weapons -- except the US and Russia don't shoot their nuclear weapons tens of thousands of times per year at each other like US residents shoot their guns at each other.
I think both Black Lives Matter and Blue Lives Matter. If my saying this bothers you, either because you don't like saying Black Lives Matter, or you don't like saying Blue Lives Matter, then ... well ... feel bothered, that's your right.
Now if I do decide to put a sticker on my car, I wonder whether the neighbors will knock on the door to check on whether I put it there myself.
