20 minutes

It's starting to bite, in terms of figuring out when to do the meditation each day.  Yesterday, even though it was a Sunday, was such a lazy day for me, with napping and video gaming, that I didn't get around to the 19-minute meditation until after T had gone to bed.  Today is a Maids Day, so this morning we were busy getting ready for that, and I didn't do my 20-minute meditation until I arrived at the condo.

Yesterday I was willing to go without the journaling reward for completing the daily meditation, but in the end I didn't want to skip a day and then drop back by half to a 9-minute meditation.  I wasn't ready to lose the first round of this game yet!

This morning while meditating, it was difficult to shake off my work stress -- stuff had piled up on Friday, I thought maybe I'd work some on Sunday to catch up, but then I didn't, so this morning I was feeling, "I have too much work to do," and the meditation felt like time I could've or should've spent working instead.

I've never gotten this far in my little meditation game -- 16 days in a row.  I wonder how far I'll get?

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I want to do a dance video while I'm here at the condo, but I think I need to finish some of the work stuff on my plate first, so I'm not feeling so stressed.  There are four work items I want to accomplish today, and there's plenty of time to accomplish them, I just need to do them.  How about I start with the quickest item first.  Then the next quickest, etc., let's just get the number of items down.

two purposes for this meditation game

(1) To get myself to meditate every day -- every fucking day.

(2) To determine the optimal amount of meditation time in order to do this every day, while doing the most I can do every day.

I expect that somewhere along the way I'll find the sweet spot.  I'm thinking to hone in on that sweet spot, after I do fail the first round, during the second round I can move up by two minutes per day.  During the third round by three minutes per day.  After two or three months of playing this meditation game I should have a good idea of what's sustainable.  Now that I'm in the 20+ minute category, it's starting to feel like a real daily time commitment.  I don't want to make a prediction of how far I'll get.  I really just want to feel it out, day by day.  What's a sustainable daily time commitment?  I mean, it cannot be three hours, LOL, that wouldn't fit every day.  Somewhere between 20 minutes and 200 minutes.