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m_d_hIt just occurred to me that one reason I'm living beyond my parents' middle-aged demises (Bug has been an orphan for a long time now) is this very important thing:
I don't hide my medical issues/symptoms/whatever from my doctor, or from anybody else. It occurs to me that my parents did. All these years later. This occurs to me now.
I thought about this as I was driving here earlier, strangely, remembering the time I took my mother to the ER for something, I dunno, seemingly random memory, but, ... what if that had not been the first episode ... I was there when it happened, so I took her to the ER. For the first time in my life I'm thinking, that wasn't the first episode. I caught her.
I deal with my medical issues, I overdeal with my medical issues. My parents did not. This is something I learned about them and from them at an early age, but I don't think I understood it until now. Which is weird. It wasn't exactly what I thought at the time -- no, they were actively covering up their medical issues.
So I fly hard in the other direction, because I don't want to end up like them.
I don't hide my medical issues/symptoms/whatever from my doctor, or from anybody else. It occurs to me that my parents did. All these years later. This occurs to me now.
I thought about this as I was driving here earlier, strangely, remembering the time I took my mother to the ER for something, I dunno, seemingly random memory, but, ... what if that had not been the first episode ... I was there when it happened, so I took her to the ER. For the first time in my life I'm thinking, that wasn't the first episode. I caught her.
I deal with my medical issues, I overdeal with my medical issues. My parents did not. This is something I learned about them and from them at an early age, but I don't think I understood it until now. Which is weird. It wasn't exactly what I thought at the time -- no, they were actively covering up their medical issues.
So I fly hard in the other direction, because I don't want to end up like them.