I cannot unsee
4 December 2020 21:32![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
m_d_hI feel deep ecology is one of those things, once you see it, you cannot unsee it,
it's the fault of all the things, all my curiosities, all the books, all the podcasts, all the Internets, everything in my past spinning into now, these 53 years, these 6^e11 seconds,
the library inside my head folding upon itself, recursive intelligence, the unhappy self, slamming into the Wall of Physics, as we all must,
plus meditation, and Astrid snuggling next to me while I sleep, pretending to be K, LOL,
what remains?
zen remains, my little game, back to 7 minutes, but I fall asleep, dreams so close, they are minutes away, and my cock gets hard inside its cage, chafing my balls,
-----
I'm afraid to get a haircut because there's a 2% chance it will give me COVID, and then give T COVID, and, shit,
so ... I have a night to self at the house ...
B is turning from a gas into a solid once more ... phase change ... I haven't seen T, prepare himself like this, in a long time ...
it's the fault of all the things, all my curiosities, all the books, all the podcasts, all the Internets, everything in my past spinning into now, these 53 years, these 6^e11 seconds,
the library inside my head folding upon itself, recursive intelligence, the unhappy self, slamming into the Wall of Physics, as we all must,
plus meditation, and Astrid snuggling next to me while I sleep, pretending to be K, LOL,
what remains?
zen remains, my little game, back to 7 minutes, but I fall asleep, dreams so close, they are minutes away, and my cock gets hard inside its cage, chafing my balls,
-----
I'm afraid to get a haircut because there's a 2% chance it will give me COVID, and then give T COVID, and, shit,
so ... I have a night to self at the house ...
B is turning from a gas into a solid once more ... phase change ... I haven't seen T, prepare himself like this, in a long time ...