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Originally I thought I'd work 9:30-3:00 and take 3 hours off. Instead I worked 7:30-4:30 ... a full day! ... but during my lunch hour I drove to the condo, so at least I'm already here and don't have to drive here during rush hour to start enjoying my weekend.
Work has felt impossible lately, but it's not hitting me as hard as it did during the first three months of Quarantine, when I took it very personally and felt a lot of guilt, especially about my then-deputy's low morale. Now I'm just apologizing more often. Sorry, I fucked up. Sorry, that was my mistake. Yes, you are right.
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31 minutes of superhorny zazen before breakfast. I've broken the half-hour mark for the first time ever! I'm pretty sure I've never meditated for more than 30 minutes before. Not on purpose, anyway.
I'll keep on keeping on, until a day arrives when I just can't get myself to meditate.
I even thought this morning, if I do make it to 60 minutes, then I could divide those 60 minutes into two 30-minute sessions, AM and PM, and then keep on incrementing to 60 again (60 twice per day). Instead of Every Fucking Day, I'd move into Every Fucking Half-Day. Really, at some point incrementing will become impossible. I'm interested in finding out when increasing the meditation becomes physically impossible for me. I'd never made it to 31 minutes before, how far can I go? What happens when I get there?
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Yes, superhorny zazen, I didn't know that was a thing. But it has been 12 days since my last orgasm, and this 10-15 day period is usually the worst. My cock remembers its last orgasm and hasn't given up on having another one yet. Perhaps Sir Zero (K) will allow me another orgasm before he leaves town. Perhaps not.
I'm thinking after our last pre-Portland date, I'll go back to using my Oracle of the Cum Deck, but with a new optional special rule #14 -- after having a permitted orgasm, I cut up and throw away the card that allowed me to have an orgasm. So the game will get more difficult as time goes on, until I've had my last orgasm.
Maybe by then, we'll be After the Vaccine, and I can go back to allowing other men to decide when I can have orgasms. Or, maybe I'll have expanded my Quarantine Bubble to include a non-K sex partner.
Yeah, a Self-Destructive Cum Deck. Sorry, Hello Kitty Visits Hawaii deck of cards, which was a gift from T&B (I think), I'm going to end up destroying your Aces and Jokers. I'll update the rules at the website to add rule #14. Yeah, that website is me, sort of a Greatest Hits version of my journal. When I especially like something I've written in my journal, I also post it there. Sometimes years after I wrote it.
I used the Cum Deck once before, while K was traveling overseas for a month or so. I didn't like it, it felt so darn impersonal compared to having an in-person Sir Zero. But, impersonal is all I got.
K is here! Time to sign off for now.
Work has felt impossible lately, but it's not hitting me as hard as it did during the first three months of Quarantine, when I took it very personally and felt a lot of guilt, especially about my then-deputy's low morale. Now I'm just apologizing more often. Sorry, I fucked up. Sorry, that was my mistake. Yes, you are right.
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31 minutes of superhorny zazen before breakfast. I've broken the half-hour mark for the first time ever! I'm pretty sure I've never meditated for more than 30 minutes before. Not on purpose, anyway.
I'll keep on keeping on, until a day arrives when I just can't get myself to meditate.
I even thought this morning, if I do make it to 60 minutes, then I could divide those 60 minutes into two 30-minute sessions, AM and PM, and then keep on incrementing to 60 again (60 twice per day). Instead of Every Fucking Day, I'd move into Every Fucking Half-Day. Really, at some point incrementing will become impossible. I'm interested in finding out when increasing the meditation becomes physically impossible for me. I'd never made it to 31 minutes before, how far can I go? What happens when I get there?
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Yes, superhorny zazen, I didn't know that was a thing. But it has been 12 days since my last orgasm, and this 10-15 day period is usually the worst. My cock remembers its last orgasm and hasn't given up on having another one yet. Perhaps Sir Zero (K) will allow me another orgasm before he leaves town. Perhaps not.
I'm thinking after our last pre-Portland date, I'll go back to using my Oracle of the Cum Deck, but with a new optional special rule #14 -- after having a permitted orgasm, I cut up and throw away the card that allowed me to have an orgasm. So the game will get more difficult as time goes on, until I've had my last orgasm.
Maybe by then, we'll be After the Vaccine, and I can go back to allowing other men to decide when I can have orgasms. Or, maybe I'll have expanded my Quarantine Bubble to include a non-K sex partner.
Yeah, a Self-Destructive Cum Deck. Sorry, Hello Kitty Visits Hawaii deck of cards, which was a gift from T&B (I think), I'm going to end up destroying your Aces and Jokers. I'll update the rules at the website to add rule #14. Yeah, that website is me, sort of a Greatest Hits version of my journal. When I especially like something I've written in my journal, I also post it there. Sometimes years after I wrote it.
I used the Cum Deck once before, while K was traveling overseas for a month or so. I didn't like it, it felt so darn impersonal compared to having an in-person Sir Zero. But, impersonal is all I got.
K is here! Time to sign off for now.