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8 June 2024 16:02it's fun that the world is complex enough for such coincidences to occur and be noticed
yeah, forgot about that word,
trying to connect with my nephew, like, I know your pain, I've been living it for 36 more years than you have, and it's OK, without being condescending, which was a criticism I've struggled with, I'm sure this entire LJ (I mean DW) is condescending,
anyway,
imagine if I'd had a gay Communist uncle when I was 18,
yeah, but, trying to not be condescending, but that might be part of the Bug package,
trying to connect with my nephew, like, I know your pain, I've been living it for 36 more years than you have, and it's OK, without being condescending, which was a criticism I've struggled with, I'm sure this entire LJ (I mean DW) is condescending,
anyway,
imagine if I'd had a gay Communist uncle when I was 18,
yeah, but, trying to not be condescending, but that might be part of the Bug package,
You remind me of what I loved most about my GarageBand projects of 8 years ago -- they made me appreciate the music I listen to, from knowing what sort of labor goes into the production. Not taking music for granted.
Also, from recording lyrics, knowing how you have to throw your own emotions into the mix to make the music work, it's not only an intellectual labor, but also an emotional labor.
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It's what made me love Home Video so much, retconning my relationship with K, retconning when we2 saw them in concert (at a venue that is now closing permanently because of the Pandemic), if only I had loved them then as much as I love them now.
It's part of how K has always planted seeds in our relationship that don't pay off for years ... and now that I realize time works in both directions, I needed him to plant those seeds so I could be who I am today. My actions today made him plant those seeds then.
Tomorrow-Bug is always talking with Yesterday-K ...
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BTW, this new music project is going to be called "nota bene" by "nine-dash line". Not sure of the capitalizations yet, or the representations. We can save the "album" artwork for later, LOL.
macro vs. micro
26 September 2020 10:14Models don't scale up (or down). The models that work for micro processes don't work for macro processes. Quantum mechanics, classical physics, general relativity -- each model works best at its own scale, and they cannot be successfully unified.
There's still another model left unmade, past the macro side of general relativity, and still another left unmade, past the micro side of quantum mechanics,
But the inability to unify models across scale presents a philosophical question I cannot answer.
How does the universe relate to itself. How do the sums of the small become the sums of the large. Too much is unmeasurable and so unknowable in between and beyond these incompatible scales.
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I was thinking about how this applies to democracy. At the scale of the individual, I have opinions and I can make choices, similarly to you. But at the scale of the country, I am lost, ineffectual, powerless. I am unbreakably connected to all of you throughout all of space and time, but I cannot control our outcomes. I cannot even track all of the effects of my own actions. Karma is unknowable, a summation of infinitely small effects across an infinitely large spacetime.
The effort of acquiring knowledge is its own limitation, the effort of acquiring knowledge biases the acquired knowledge.
In the face of unknowable ineffectualness, we must still derive an ethics: the Noble Eightfold Path (āryāṣṭāṅgamārga).
There's still another model left unmade, past the macro side of general relativity, and still another left unmade, past the micro side of quantum mechanics,
But the inability to unify models across scale presents a philosophical question I cannot answer.
How does the universe relate to itself. How do the sums of the small become the sums of the large. Too much is unmeasurable and so unknowable in between and beyond these incompatible scales.
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I was thinking about how this applies to democracy. At the scale of the individual, I have opinions and I can make choices, similarly to you. But at the scale of the country, I am lost, ineffectual, powerless. I am unbreakably connected to all of you throughout all of space and time, but I cannot control our outcomes. I cannot even track all of the effects of my own actions. Karma is unknowable, a summation of infinitely small effects across an infinitely large spacetime.
The effort of acquiring knowledge is its own limitation, the effort of acquiring knowledge biases the acquired knowledge.
In the face of unknowable ineffectualness, we must still derive an ethics: the Noble Eightfold Path (āryāṣṭāṅgamārga).
we're so stuck on the direction of our own timeline, that we only look for records from the past,
but what if we looked for records from the future?
imagine running "backward" along this timeline, and finding records from the future,
if we started looking for them ...
but what if we looked for records from the future?
imagine running "backward" along this timeline, and finding records from the future,
if we started looking for them ...
We have these spiritual guideposts that tell us stuff like, "Live as though today were your last," and "Live always within each moment," but we also observe both causality and retrocausality.
What if our spiritual advice flowed from the paradox of time's bidirectional (or even multidirectional) arrows?
Live as though you're already dead. Live as though you'd never been born. Live as though you'll never die. Live as though you were born as somebody else. And do all four of these tasks simultaneously.
In other words, live within the entire scope of time's multidirectional arrows. Respect the pasts, presents, and futures as you encounter each moment. This present moment is connected to both the pasts and the futures, cannot be disconnected from either the pasts or the futures. All possible universes, past, present, and future, are contained within this moment. Act accordingly.
It's an awesome directive. How could you do such a thing? But this is how the Buddhist Precepts are properly derived, by thinking of your present moment as an unbreakable link between all possible pasts and all possible futures, and as a similarly unbreakable link between the experiences of all sentients and objects within these pasts and futures. Because this is our reality within each moment. And we should contemplate living through these unbreakable links as an awesome task.
What if our spiritual advice flowed from the paradox of time's bidirectional (or even multidirectional) arrows?
Live as though you're already dead. Live as though you'd never been born. Live as though you'll never die. Live as though you were born as somebody else. And do all four of these tasks simultaneously.
In other words, live within the entire scope of time's multidirectional arrows. Respect the pasts, presents, and futures as you encounter each moment. This present moment is connected to both the pasts and the futures, cannot be disconnected from either the pasts or the futures. All possible universes, past, present, and future, are contained within this moment. Act accordingly.
It's an awesome directive. How could you do such a thing? But this is how the Buddhist Precepts are properly derived, by thinking of your present moment as an unbreakable link between all possible pasts and all possible futures, and as a similarly unbreakable link between the experiences of all sentients and objects within these pasts and futures. Because this is our reality within each moment. And we should contemplate living through these unbreakable links as an awesome task.
T cooked dinner, and it was great!
So, after Blue Apron kept forgetting to send us all the ingredients, week after week, we finally killed them and switched to ... Martha Stewart. This was T's idea. Now we're getting 3x2 meals each week from Martha Stewart instead of Blue Apron.
I usually cook dinner. And I'm OCD, and I've been cooking The Blue Apron Way for Years! Oh now, Martha Stewart ... is ... different ...
In a lot of ways! I asked T to join me in the kitchen for moral support as I cooked my first Martha Stewart meal, and I did end up needing his help. But the food was great.
Tonight T took a turn, and the food was also great. Martha Stewart meals are more difficult to cook, but they taste better. I feel like we just upgraded our lives. I feel like I wouldn't be able to cook these meals if I had to commute for 150 minutes per day.
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We split a bottle of red wine with dinner. After I did the dishes, I went out to the hot tub while T played video games. Just like old times, LOL, I really haven't spent much time in the hot tub over the past few months. Summer sucked. But this was relaxing :-)
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Probably coming up on my last night with K before he moves away. If I were a tyrannical Goddess, I wouldn't let him go. But instead I'm a relationship anarchist. Should I have worked harder in the past to "make him mine"? Not my style. Not with T either. Not with others before them. I commit to my partners, but I also let them go.
As cause and effect must work in both directions along the time axis, I believe my future self is causing me to play this meditation game to deal with the grief of K moving away. Didn't I start playing it before K told me the news?
My future self is reprogramming my life. It has to. My past self could not have accepted this outcome. There were a lot of outcomes my past self could not accept.
The result of all this not accepting ... sprang back through time to reprogram the past. Yes, it's a paradox. The present moment is always the result of tensions between a range of possible pasts, and a range of possible futures. These are the tensions that could fuel a stochastic spacetime bomb ;-)
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Cause and effect is time travel. It's how time travel works. And it works in both directions. But it isn't like a wormhole -- wormholes are the dreams of those who wish to evade cause and effect. You act now, and it has an effect in the future, along every moment between --> that's time travel. You act in the future, and it has an effect now, along every moment in between --> that's time travel. Whenever you act it has effects on both the future and the past, but only along every moment in between. This is difficult to trace, due to quantum mechanics, the uncertainty principle ... the Goddess rolling dice in contravention of Einstein's wishes ... we barely understand that cause and effect works from past to present, and from present to future. It is much more difficult to trace the other direction, that cause and effect works from present to past, and from future to present.
But it's just math. If you create an equation for cause and effect moving forward in time, the same equation works backward in time.
When Dōgen said 800 years ago to observe cause and effect, I don't know whether he meant that it works both forward and backward through time. But maybe he did. In which case, I caused Dōgen, and Dōgen caused me. I'm telling Dōgen right now to write his lectures so I can read them 800 years later.
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It's not that we each get to create our own pasts and our own futures. It's that the present moment in which we act is determined by both our pasts and our futures, and the present moment in which we act determines both our pasts and our futures. It's way too complicated to control. Also way too complicated to perceive. It's the math. If the present state can predict the future, then the future state can predict the present. That's the import of the equals sign. It works in both directions. A = B, but B = A.
In Ontario, they teach the equals sign in first grade. I think it would be a helluva lot more interesting to all of us, if they taught us that the equals sign is what enables time travel.
So, after Blue Apron kept forgetting to send us all the ingredients, week after week, we finally killed them and switched to ... Martha Stewart. This was T's idea. Now we're getting 3x2 meals each week from Martha Stewart instead of Blue Apron.
I usually cook dinner. And I'm OCD, and I've been cooking The Blue Apron Way for Years! Oh now, Martha Stewart ... is ... different ...
In a lot of ways! I asked T to join me in the kitchen for moral support as I cooked my first Martha Stewart meal, and I did end up needing his help. But the food was great.
Tonight T took a turn, and the food was also great. Martha Stewart meals are more difficult to cook, but they taste better. I feel like we just upgraded our lives. I feel like I wouldn't be able to cook these meals if I had to commute for 150 minutes per day.
-----
We split a bottle of red wine with dinner. After I did the dishes, I went out to the hot tub while T played video games. Just like old times, LOL, I really haven't spent much time in the hot tub over the past few months. Summer sucked. But this was relaxing :-)
-----
Probably coming up on my last night with K before he moves away. If I were a tyrannical Goddess, I wouldn't let him go. But instead I'm a relationship anarchist. Should I have worked harder in the past to "make him mine"? Not my style. Not with T either. Not with others before them. I commit to my partners, but I also let them go.
As cause and effect must work in both directions along the time axis, I believe my future self is causing me to play this meditation game to deal with the grief of K moving away. Didn't I start playing it before K told me the news?
My future self is reprogramming my life. It has to. My past self could not have accepted this outcome. There were a lot of outcomes my past self could not accept.
The result of all this not accepting ... sprang back through time to reprogram the past. Yes, it's a paradox. The present moment is always the result of tensions between a range of possible pasts, and a range of possible futures. These are the tensions that could fuel a stochastic spacetime bomb ;-)
-----
Cause and effect is time travel. It's how time travel works. And it works in both directions. But it isn't like a wormhole -- wormholes are the dreams of those who wish to evade cause and effect. You act now, and it has an effect in the future, along every moment between --> that's time travel. You act in the future, and it has an effect now, along every moment in between --> that's time travel. Whenever you act it has effects on both the future and the past, but only along every moment in between. This is difficult to trace, due to quantum mechanics, the uncertainty principle ... the Goddess rolling dice in contravention of Einstein's wishes ... we barely understand that cause and effect works from past to present, and from present to future. It is much more difficult to trace the other direction, that cause and effect works from present to past, and from future to present.
But it's just math. If you create an equation for cause and effect moving forward in time, the same equation works backward in time.
When Dōgen said 800 years ago to observe cause and effect, I don't know whether he meant that it works both forward and backward through time. But maybe he did. In which case, I caused Dōgen, and Dōgen caused me. I'm telling Dōgen right now to write his lectures so I can read them 800 years later.
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It's not that we each get to create our own pasts and our own futures. It's that the present moment in which we act is determined by both our pasts and our futures, and the present moment in which we act determines both our pasts and our futures. It's way too complicated to control. Also way too complicated to perceive. It's the math. If the present state can predict the future, then the future state can predict the present. That's the import of the equals sign. It works in both directions. A = B, but B = A.
In Ontario, they teach the equals sign in first grade. I think it would be a helluva lot more interesting to all of us, if they taught us that the equals sign is what enables time travel.
