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I had an enjoyable "mental health evening" :-)
Although I opened a bottle of wine we didn't finish it. I read some fiction from the 1950s, ate a delightful vegetarian delivery dinner and had some pleasant conversations with T, and then was in bed by 8:30pm.
I woke very early this morning, though. My sleep hours are all over the place during Quarantine. I'm napping more often, going to bed early more often, staying up late more often. My life was more regimented before, when I had the daily commute of at least an hour each way.
Today it will be sunny and most of the sidewalks are already clear of ice, so I'll try running this afternoon in between work meetings. I already stretched this morning before breakfast. Then tomorrow morning should be weight lifting, my arms should have recovered from the snow shoveling by then.
T & B made their weekend plans -- T is going to B's apartment on Saturday, so I get Saturday night to myself at the house. If I want Friday night to myself also I could go to the condo for one night, T sounded OK with that idea last night. He may want some time to himself before seeing B. I'll decide on that tomorrow morning.
25 days since my last orgasm, and I'm in the horribly perpetually horny stage :o) Without the hope of a "yes" from the Oracle this time, without the hope of a "yes" from anybody for an unknown period of time. Trying to make this final stage of Quarantine different from the previous stages, by doing this to myself. There was Stage One when I was seeing K every couple of weeks and sometimes he'd let me have orgasms with him. There was Stage Two when K moved away and I switched to the Oracle (under a newly designed set of rules, more difficult than the previous time I consulted the Oracle) and had pretty good luck with it. Stage Three came after I spontaneously and unexpectedly defied the Oracle and had an orgasm anyway ... so I wanted to tighten the rules further, and after some hilarity came up with the current Freezer Boy situation.
This morning as I rested in bed my cock was as hard as it can get inside the Leopard and all I wanted to do was unlock it and stroke it and cum. But the keys are inside a block of ice. And now T knows it, he asked me what was in the freezer and I told him. He presumed that I have a Sir, and I didn't correct him, but I don't. It's all me right now.
I hadn't thought about how I was implicitly punishing myself for quitting the Oracle by wanting to "throw away the keys". In retrospect it is more obvious that I was reacting to my inability to follow my own rules. If I couldn't wait until receiving permission to cum, then I shouldn't get to cum at all. But how?
Other than throwing away the keys to the Leopard, I could give them to another human for safekeeping. One of you local readers offered to hold onto them for me. And I'm sure I could drop them off at Ben's house for safekeeping, he'd love that. I guess that's the next step if the freezer doesn't work as sufficient deterrent. Then I'd have to beg with another human to please let me have them back, and then travel to see him if he agreed. Thinking about this turns me on, LOL. There's also an intermediate step, I could leave the block of ice at the house when I go to the condo, or vice versa, depending on which location has the most risk of me breaking the rule.
So ... let's think on that point. I broke the rule at the house. Yeah, I was unlocking at the condo while intoxicated, but I also wasn't so interested in having an orgasm while intoxicated. Like most guys, it is more difficult for me to cum if I'm drinking alcohol. I was at the house and sober when I had the unlawful orgasm. Keeping the keys inside a block of ice should be deterrent against using them while intoxicated. Keeping the block of ice at the condo should be deterrent against using them while at the house. Plus I spend more time at the house, so the condo would be the better deterrent.
OK, assuming I go to the condo tomorrow, I'll take the keys there and leave them there. I'm not worried about chafing anymore, I've been wearing the Leopard long enough and during every sort of activity, it's fine.
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Oh, if I get the house to myself on Saturday, that's when I'm cutting my hair!
I've thought about trying to do a "longer on top, tapered on the sides" kind of haircut, and I read a How To article ... but I still think it would be easier for me to do that in the future if I start with a #3 all over butch cut. Then as my hair grows back out, I could continue to keep the sides at #3 (or even #2) while letting the top grow out, while learning to taper it with a #4.
I think I will be totally happy to go back to having a professional cut my hair after I get the vaccine. But I want to try this. Even if I hate the result.
Saturday!
Although I opened a bottle of wine we didn't finish it. I read some fiction from the 1950s, ate a delightful vegetarian delivery dinner and had some pleasant conversations with T, and then was in bed by 8:30pm.
I woke very early this morning, though. My sleep hours are all over the place during Quarantine. I'm napping more often, going to bed early more often, staying up late more often. My life was more regimented before, when I had the daily commute of at least an hour each way.
Today it will be sunny and most of the sidewalks are already clear of ice, so I'll try running this afternoon in between work meetings. I already stretched this morning before breakfast. Then tomorrow morning should be weight lifting, my arms should have recovered from the snow shoveling by then.
T & B made their weekend plans -- T is going to B's apartment on Saturday, so I get Saturday night to myself at the house. If I want Friday night to myself also I could go to the condo for one night, T sounded OK with that idea last night. He may want some time to himself before seeing B. I'll decide on that tomorrow morning.
25 days since my last orgasm, and I'm in the horribly perpetually horny stage :o) Without the hope of a "yes" from the Oracle this time, without the hope of a "yes" from anybody for an unknown period of time. Trying to make this final stage of Quarantine different from the previous stages, by doing this to myself. There was Stage One when I was seeing K every couple of weeks and sometimes he'd let me have orgasms with him. There was Stage Two when K moved away and I switched to the Oracle (under a newly designed set of rules, more difficult than the previous time I consulted the Oracle) and had pretty good luck with it. Stage Three came after I spontaneously and unexpectedly defied the Oracle and had an orgasm anyway ... so I wanted to tighten the rules further, and after some hilarity came up with the current Freezer Boy situation.
This morning as I rested in bed my cock was as hard as it can get inside the Leopard and all I wanted to do was unlock it and stroke it and cum. But the keys are inside a block of ice. And now T knows it, he asked me what was in the freezer and I told him. He presumed that I have a Sir, and I didn't correct him, but I don't. It's all me right now.
I hadn't thought about how I was implicitly punishing myself for quitting the Oracle by wanting to "throw away the keys". In retrospect it is more obvious that I was reacting to my inability to follow my own rules. If I couldn't wait until receiving permission to cum, then I shouldn't get to cum at all. But how?
Other than throwing away the keys to the Leopard, I could give them to another human for safekeeping. One of you local readers offered to hold onto them for me. And I'm sure I could drop them off at Ben's house for safekeeping, he'd love that. I guess that's the next step if the freezer doesn't work as sufficient deterrent. Then I'd have to beg with another human to please let me have them back, and then travel to see him if he agreed. Thinking about this turns me on, LOL. There's also an intermediate step, I could leave the block of ice at the house when I go to the condo, or vice versa, depending on which location has the most risk of me breaking the rule.
So ... let's think on that point. I broke the rule at the house. Yeah, I was unlocking at the condo while intoxicated, but I also wasn't so interested in having an orgasm while intoxicated. Like most guys, it is more difficult for me to cum if I'm drinking alcohol. I was at the house and sober when I had the unlawful orgasm. Keeping the keys inside a block of ice should be deterrent against using them while intoxicated. Keeping the block of ice at the condo should be deterrent against using them while at the house. Plus I spend more time at the house, so the condo would be the better deterrent.
OK, assuming I go to the condo tomorrow, I'll take the keys there and leave them there. I'm not worried about chafing anymore, I've been wearing the Leopard long enough and during every sort of activity, it's fine.
-----
Oh, if I get the house to myself on Saturday, that's when I'm cutting my hair!
I've thought about trying to do a "longer on top, tapered on the sides" kind of haircut, and I read a How To article ... but I still think it would be easier for me to do that in the future if I start with a #3 all over butch cut. Then as my hair grows back out, I could continue to keep the sides at #3 (or even #2) while letting the top grow out, while learning to taper it with a #4.
I think I will be totally happy to go back to having a professional cut my hair after I get the vaccine. But I want to try this. Even if I hate the result.
Saturday!
