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I rarely meet guys online, but I met a guy online, and we rehearsed, how I was gonna Dom him, especially the ball torture, he made me watch a video, this kind of ball torture, so I was ready. Then when he showed up, he was so beautiful, my perfect type, and … he flipped … he went Dom on me, inside the condo he told me to strip, then put the electro toys on me, while making me suck his cock, … then for a while he became my FinDom, but I wanted another in-person visit, and he wouldn’t, so, I broke it off. I only play with people if I sense I’d want to play with them again. This is what I wanted to say when you were telling me about your relationship style.
Been at the condo for a couple hours already? Made sure the plumbing fix has been working -- yep, everything is dry dry dry, dry wall, dry floor, dry tub, the plumber stopped the leaks. Whew! I've been low-level anxious since K left, that with him on the other coast I need to keep an eye on the condo from now on, I can't just leave it vacant for a month at a time. And then so soon after K left I detected a problem that required prompt action. Although the bathroom plumbing had been leaking for a long time -- should've dealt with it long ago -- but the leak was always into the tub, not into the wall, so, with nobody living here, and no responsibility for a water bill, we let it go. But, then the wall.
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I'm branching out and chatting with more fellas online, after Matt from Reddit pierced my veil. I know this is entirely normal for every gay guy in the world in 2020, but I'd pretty much sworn off chatting with people I'd never meet, way back in 2005. I didn't like how much of my heart was invested in purely online relationships, I wanted to touch people. I was stuck with all these guys who wouldn't even talk with me on the phone (telephone phobias), much less plan to meet in person someday. If I went out to a club, I'd meet people! But there are guys who never meet people. I'd fallen in with too many of them. It was time for a change. I was hosting my Game Days, I moved in with T, and I haven't needed online chat buddies ever since.
But Quarantine, and K moving away. So, back to the online stuff, because I cannot go to the Green Lantern spanking parties to meet people, because I cannot use Recon or Grindr to meet people. Because I cannot even meet the people I already know right now.
I have an enormous back catalog of naked selfies to trade online, and it is easy to make more, heh :-) For the bottom boys, I even have fun pics of my cock from before I dove so deeply into chastity. I can simulate top sexting, LOL.
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I brought the top card of the Cum Deck with me, only the top card, not the entire deck, it felt like a tease to bring only the top card, unseen. I may "draw" it tomorrow morning, we'll see. Or maybe I'll wait. The initiative is back with me, until I reveal the card. My only power is to decide when to reveal the card.
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I can remember way back, when I first started with the butt toys. It was a guy on LJ who encouraged me and guided me, almost 20 years ago. Now you can find thousands of gay butt toy enthusiasts on Twitter. So many of them are young, and into puppy play and other BDSM stuff. I had no access to a community like that when I was in my 20s.
I can forget how unusual my fetishes are. Most gay guys are into oral or anal, top or bottom, that's it. Maybe they have one secret fetish. But that's why we have hookup apps like Recon, for us fetishers, the guys with lots of fetishes. But I haven't been on there in months, I deleted my hookup profiles for Quarantine.
Well ... tonight I'm here at the condo for Time to Self. It's been a stressful month+, and I need some fun :-) But I also need more of a social connection with people other than T, even if it is only online, for now.
Goddess, please speed along the vaccine, and let me live to see the day when I can meet random guys in person again.
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I'm branching out and chatting with more fellas online, after Matt from Reddit pierced my veil. I know this is entirely normal for every gay guy in the world in 2020, but I'd pretty much sworn off chatting with people I'd never meet, way back in 2005. I didn't like how much of my heart was invested in purely online relationships, I wanted to touch people. I was stuck with all these guys who wouldn't even talk with me on the phone (telephone phobias), much less plan to meet in person someday. If I went out to a club, I'd meet people! But there are guys who never meet people. I'd fallen in with too many of them. It was time for a change. I was hosting my Game Days, I moved in with T, and I haven't needed online chat buddies ever since.
But Quarantine, and K moving away. So, back to the online stuff, because I cannot go to the Green Lantern spanking parties to meet people, because I cannot use Recon or Grindr to meet people. Because I cannot even meet the people I already know right now.
I have an enormous back catalog of naked selfies to trade online, and it is easy to make more, heh :-) For the bottom boys, I even have fun pics of my cock from before I dove so deeply into chastity. I can simulate top sexting, LOL.
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I brought the top card of the Cum Deck with me, only the top card, not the entire deck, it felt like a tease to bring only the top card, unseen. I may "draw" it tomorrow morning, we'll see. Or maybe I'll wait. The initiative is back with me, until I reveal the card. My only power is to decide when to reveal the card.
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I can remember way back, when I first started with the butt toys. It was a guy on LJ who encouraged me and guided me, almost 20 years ago. Now you can find thousands of gay butt toy enthusiasts on Twitter. So many of them are young, and into puppy play and other BDSM stuff. I had no access to a community like that when I was in my 20s.
I can forget how unusual my fetishes are. Most gay guys are into oral or anal, top or bottom, that's it. Maybe they have one secret fetish. But that's why we have hookup apps like Recon, for us fetishers, the guys with lots of fetishes. But I haven't been on there in months, I deleted my hookup profiles for Quarantine.
Well ... tonight I'm here at the condo for Time to Self. It's been a stressful month+, and I need some fun :-) But I also need more of a social connection with people other than T, even if it is only online, for now.
Goddess, please speed along the vaccine, and let me live to see the day when I can meet random guys in person again.
