VirtualExile

I'd suspected Matt from Reddit had some intimacy issues, so I wasn't shocked this afternoon when he texted me to say he was going to delete the app and I wouldn't be hearing from him anymore.  He said he didn't want to ghost me, because I've been a nice person to him.  Perhaps he found somebody more to his liking and isn't the type to text around.  Or perhaps he's going back into his cave for a while.  I don't know.  It was fun and he got me to open up more to the online fellas, which is helping me to weather the darkening days and the lonely holidays, until we can get the vaccine.  But he did seem sorta cautious about telling me details of his life and showing his face.

Mark from Reddit is still going strong, sexting me during his study breaks and slowly telling me more details about his life, such as what he's studying and that he lives with his older brother.  I think he may be an immigrant (who now lives in Canada) but I couldn't care less about somebody's immigration status.  He's smart and polite and we share kinky interests and we have fun chatting.

I'm chatting with a couple other guys from Reddit also, but I'm not on a first-name status with them yet.  I'm pretty sure one of them will disappear when his vanilla boyfriend returns from holiday travel.

I know from decades of experience that making new connections with people is hit or miss and that most people don't stick around.  It's why I do value staying in touch with the people I've known for a long time.  These connections are important to me.  I'm willing to have more, but this is not something I can control, it's only something I can be open to.

Matt from Reddit has quickly become a daily fixture -- we're texting and sending each other HOT videos.  He's masturbating to my videos and sending me videos of his orgasms; I'm not allowed to cum or touch my cock unless the Oracle of the Cum Deck allows so I'm just getting even HORNIER.  It's exactly what he requested in his personal ad, and I was happy to oblige.  I'm totally his physical type, he's one of my physical types, he's smart and no drama.  We don't have everything in common, he's not into butt toys for example (he's not even into butts!), or any other kink as far as I can tell so far.  But we don't need to have everything in common.  It's a nonexclusive Quarantine LDR.  We keep each other virtual company, we turn each other on with pics and vids.

He lives alone in a condo and is taking Quarantine so very seriously for a younger fella.  Makes me think he's generally a trustworthy and responsible guy.  But I know about 0.1% about him, and vice versa.  But I respect people who respect COVID-19.

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My workload has lightened up so much this week, wow, hasn't been this slow since before Quarantine.  It feels nice.  I still may have to work for a few hours on Sunday, but, this week has felt nice.  It's like a workcation -- on the clock, but relaxing nonetheless.

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I wrote about this a bit earlier, but having somebody who cares enough about how I look to send me videos of himself shooting his sperm while watching videos of me -- is super motivating for exercise and diet.  Reminds me of when Sir Zero declared that I must get my weight down to 160 for our trip to SF, or he'd shut me in the closet for a day as punishment.  Matt isn't acting like a Sir in that way, but having that sort of attention, an attention that cares about how I look, yay.  It's making a difference in my life already.  I expect he feels something similar.  That somebody cares.

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K had insisted that I'd fall in love again, though I'm not calling this "love", but to have somebody new in my life -- it's been a while.  And for now, safer that the somebody new is far away and not breathing germs into my personal space.

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Can't wait to get back to the condo tomorrow for Time to Self, but it will only be for one night, I have to help T put things back into the basement on Sunday -- and also work on our joint annual budget, so we can implement our new expense-sharing system.  And I'll probably need to do my job for a few hours on Sunday.  So, one night at the condo, but can't wait!  I wish I could take tomorrow off.  I'll definitely quit work early tomorrow, the only question is how early.

I'm gonna try running 5 miles in the morning before I leave.

Finally, nine days later, after the previous ten days later, I am allowed to draw another card today.

But I don't think I will.  It would be a waste if today I were to have the 10% chance of an orgasm, or the 8% chance of an edging day, because I'm going to be babysitting a plumber at the condo for hours.  If I were at the condo by myself today, it would be a perfect day to unlock my cock.  But it's a tiny condo!  Plumber for hours!

I hope to return to the condo on Friday for a Night to Self, and then I'll draw my next card on Saturday morning.  Might stay two nights at the condo for the first time in weeks, but I'll have to see.  We still need to move stuff back into the basement, so perhaps a one night stay and then moving stuff on Sunday.  I should get a couple nights at the condo the following weekend, because with Turkey Day I'm having four days off from work.

Yesterday I had to move the plants indoors from the patio, because of a freeze warning.  Our first stab of winter has arrived.

I'm feeling more caught up on work stuff, but I might have to work for a few hours on Sunday because of a Monday deadline, and because the other people on this project are still pulling their pieces together.  So, yeah, probably just a one-night stay at the condo on Friday night.  Can have a two-night stay next time.

T had invited that other household over for Turkey Dinner, but they haven't accepted yet.  If they do accept, it will have been 10 days since a Maids Day so there will be a bunch of cleaning that day.

I should be able to resume weight lifting tomorrow, finally.  And my left tricep feels all better now.

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Oh, I have a new online chat buddy, his name is Matt.  Coincidentally, he lives in Portland, where K moved to.  He's a high school english teacher and he's into older guys with big chests, so he's been digging on (masturbating to) pics of my chest.  I "met" him on Reddit, where he displayed an unusual ability to write in full paragraphs and converse about topics other than sex and sending him cash.  He's lonely living by himself in quarantine and wants to form a connection with an older guy, so, I'm trying.  So far I tend to fall asleep soon after his work day ends, though -- three-hour time difference.  I may get more into conversing with him over the weekend when he's not working and I'm staying up later.

I've generally been anti chat buddies who I'll never meet, since I moved in with Tod at the beginning of 2005.  Since then I've felt I'd rather drain my introvert tanks with people who I actually get to hang out with in person.  When a guy I met online would just want to chat forever instead of meeting, I'd lose interest.  But, the pandemic feels like a special case, and I've been wondering how I can fill some of the emotional gap left by K's move.  So when I saw Matt's personal ad, I gave it a shot.

Similar to how I've been agreeing to virtual board games with Steve, and phone calls with people, and maybe a Skype Toy Date with David (that's Brooklyn David, who I had a crush on many years ago, before some aspects of his personality started bugging me, but he's older now).

Matt likes to chat via Kik, so I downloaded that again.  He's a bit taller than me, slim, brown hair, in shape, in his early 30s.  He sounds very serious so far, I'm wondering how to access his sense of humor.  But it could be that he's depressed and lonely.  Sounds like he's taking quarantine very seriously, doesn't enjoy working virtually.  He says he hasn't used hookup apps in years.  We'll see whether I can figure out how to make him laugh.  Might be easier if he allowed me to talk with him on the phone, or via video.

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Gotta get up and go to the condo!  Plumbing Day!